Well Mum, on 1st November we laid your ashes to rest with Dad at Gilroes, but then you know that. We had the small gathering of just family as you wanted and I cooked chilli and rice here at home. Sorry, I know you wouldn't have liked the chilli, but I made a cheesecake for pudding, and I know you used to love those. It was a strange day, sad, numb, eventless, I was asking myself 'what now?'. But, there is no 'what now', is there? just moving forward, without you, which is very strange in itself. I still find it very hard, I find everything very hard these days, I wish you were here. I know you already were with Dad, but now you are together forever, give him a hug for me and tell him I miss him. Look after my Holly and give her a huge hug and kiss for me. Stay close. I'll see you all again, one day xxx