well mum thats 3 years without you and it really does still hurt, i can still see you pottering around in the garden, you seemed so happy just to potter in that big garden tending to you plants. i hope you are looking down on us 5 ( marie, peter, connor, lisa and me) and i hope that you are proud of us and happy in the knowledge that we are all ok as we know that you are safe and well in that land of happiness. Love and miss you Paul